Curt Schilling isn't going to make his teammates read his blog. He wrote some of them letters to say goodbye. "I actually broke out a pen and paper the last couple days," Schilling said Tuesday in his weekly radio appearance while driving to Fenway Park for the Red Sox victory parade. "There's a very realistic chance I won't ever play with them again." The soon-to-be 41-year-old right-hander, a key part of both of Boston's World Series championship teams in this century, is eligible to become a free agent. He said in spring training he would return for one more year at his current salary of $13 million, but the Red Sox wanted to see how he performed this season while adjusting to life without a 90 mph fastball. "A one-year deal is all I'm looking for," Schilling said, adding that he expected to file for free agency over the next few days. "If truly, physically, I was at the end of my rope, this would be the ultimate way to walk away. I don't think I'm there."