Mike Mussina was so angry and hurt, he didn't want to speak publicly at first. Two days after losing his spot in the Yankees' rotation, he finally could talk about it. "It's pretty hard," Mussina said Thursday morning in the clubhouse, speaking slowly and measuring his words. "For somebody that's been in a rotation for 17 years, it's pretty hard. It caught me a little off guard, although I know I was struggling badly, which is probably why I needed a couple days to simmer down."