David Ortiz has been a lightning rod for criticism in Boston recently due to his slow starts. That criticism has taken a toll on Ortiz, who unleashed his frustration after Boston defeated Baltimore on Monday night to climb back to .500. "I'm the kind of [expletive] who worries about winning games," Ortiz said. "I'm a winner. I hate losing. But what I do, I don't do for everybody to know. I do it for us to get better and the trash talking out there to stop." Ortiz was set off by a question about a team meeting he called May 11 in the wake of a golf outing Josh Beckett took while nursing an injured shoulder. "Who told you about that meeting?" Ortiz asked reporters. "Somebody wrote, 'Why didn't he do it earlier?' Earlier? When am I going to do it, in spring training? What did I do wrong? Seriously, what did I do wrong? "You hit 54 home runs, then hit 35, it's not good enough. How many people hit 35? Never good enough, bro. That's why I don't care." Ortiz also turned his ire on his own front office, claiming he's not respected by the team's executives. "I don't get no respect," he said. "Not from the media. Not from the front office. What I do is never the right thing. It's always hiding, for somebody to find out."