Milton Bradley says mounting pressure to produce under a $30 million contract led him to seek help from the Mariners. He added that his controversial stay with the Cubs didn't help his issues. "I wanted to take some time out, get my thoughts together, and just speak to someone and get an understanding from somebody unbiased," Bradley said. "But you can't really do that in Chicago. There's just too much going on." Bradley spent two weeks on Seattle's restricted list and is seeing a counselor in town who has an athletic background and "dealt with anger himself." For more than two seasons, Bradley has been struggling with an intense pressure to produce and succeed, and that the stress has occasionally led to unpleasant thoughts. "It's always been like my validation, my worth as a human being is that I've been a good baseball player," Bradley said. "That's a bad way to look at it, but that's just how I've looked at it. I just really had this hopeless feeling when I wasn't playing baseball well. "I know when I start thinking about not living anymore based on the fact that I'm not playing baseball well, that's when I know I need to take a step back."