Royals outfielder Jose Guillen has been extremely disappointed in his play this season. "I hate making excuses," Guillen told the Kansas City Star. "If I suck, then I suck. And I suck. That's the way I'm playing. If you suck, you suck. You have to take responsibility in this game. Right now, that's the way I feel. "Yes, I suck." Guillen is hitting .243 with just nine home runs and 37 RBIs in 76 games. He will make $36 million over the course of his three-year contract. "I'm embarrassed by the money that I making," Guillen said, "and playing the way I've been playing. I'll swear that on my kids' (lives). I feel very embarrassed. "Sometimes, I feel I should take money out of my own pocket and buy tickets for every fan. Because you know what? For a $12 million man, these are not the numbers you should be expecting. I admit it. I'm not playing to my potential."