May 19, 2010 8:07 AM EST

Mike Lowell believes that the best outcome would be for the Red Sox to simply release him.

"I literally eat up a roster spot," Lowell said. "I literally do. That's the way it is.

"I don't want to use [asking for his release] as leverage, it's just the reality of the situation they're in. When Jacoby [Ellsbury] and [Mike] Cameron come back, who do I hit for? There will not be one person in the lineup.

"The first baseman [Kevin Youkilis] and the third baseman [Adrian Beltre], they're two Gold Glovers. They never get batted for. I refuse to wish injuries to good players. That's so [expletive] terrible. I want to get playing time on my own.

"It's not good or bad, it's just reality. It's almost verbatim what I said in spring training. I'm not mad about my life. I'm just mad about the fact I put in a lot of work in the offseason to get where I am, and I'm not playing."

If Boston releases Lowell, they'd be on the hook for all of his $12 million in salary.

Lowell said he's not mad at anyone and that he actually has faith in David Ortiz.

"I'm not mad at Tito," he said. "I don't see why I have to go there. What am I going to go and tell him, play me more? Why? Who am I going to play for?

"Honestly, I actually agree with everything they have done. I actually would have played David more. I would have needed to see if he was really hurting or he was going to come out of it. That's why I think I pose a problem. It's like they feel they owed me at-bats against a lefty.

"It worked for a couple of days, but overall we all want David to be good. That's just a fact of our life. If we're going to have success, David needs to be good."

Via ESPN